This is photo #40 of my 365 project (or one of them). It was taken last night, right as I was about to settle into the couch for over two hours to watch Henry & June with my husband, while basking in romantic candlelight. The movie was enlightening; very erotic & slightly uncomfortable to watch. But I forced my eyes open to see those images to have my brain fully grasp the resounding idea that sex & sexuality is beautiful. (& mine is a work in progress.)
I feel like a zombie today. My mind is a muddled mess. I am lethargic, broody, & light-headed. My thought processes are coming out in random, run-on sentences. I woke up this morning craving Muddy Buddies after having a dream that I was eating them in a bathtub. & my uterus is doing what it does every first of the month: raging, screaming, & having a bloody tantrum. (Pun not intended, believe it or not.) Perhaps this is why I am feeling so out of it…?
& you know what? I think stilettos were created by the devil himself, & those who can wear them freely & fiercely must be possessed. Seriously, I have uber amounts of respect (& a little disdain) for women who actually walk around in those things. Me? I look like a baby elephant on stilts. Never again will I put my poor chicken legs through that kind of torture. My upper thighs kind of hate me today.
Also: I could never be a model. Never, ever. It’s far too boring & I’m far too awkward. But that’s a whole other story.
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new on ask apricot:
- “how can I explore my creative side & find my niche?”
- “my boyfriend’s [female] boss won’t stop calling him!”
- “I keep having dreams about my ex…”