Tuesday, August 12th, 2008
apricot’s closet: mediocre outfit, with talk of flats.
shirt, from American Apparel; shorts, from Ross; ankle boots, from Target; necklace is second-handed from my grandmother; bracelet is seconded-handed from my mother.
Whether I’d like to admit it or not, apartment finding isn’t quite as bad as I imagined it. But it is as exhausting & thought consuming. We looked at half a dozen places this past weekend, each with their own unique kind of charm & with one or two negative sides to consider.
For instance, one open house we went to was a bungalow, constructed in the 1920s. It was absolutely charming, with original decoration, hardwood floors & crown molding. It even had deck that led to the front part of the place. &, oh my goodness, the closet was spectacular. I opened the door & it actually had steps (!!!) proceeding further into more space. It was huge. I took one look & cried, “Okay, that’s it. Sold!” Lover & I both laughed, & lingered in the apartment a little longer. But in spite of all of it’s charm & originality, we simply couldn’t love it. Or, rather, I couldn’t love it. Because, yes, it was terribly attractive, with interesting features, but it was also a lot further into town than we wanted. Not to mention, it was almost a little too old, in that it was a bit outdated.
Every apartment we saw had perks, but they also had a few cons; as in, the area wasn’t desirable, or the distance was inconvenient, or the price was a bit out of our budget. Those cons typically outweighed the perks, making us weary & agitated. & because I’m far from patient, all of this is particularly difficult for me. I have high expectations of what I’d like our next space to be, & that makes it harder for us to find a suitable place when I am often too critical. But mostly, I just want resolution; I want to know that we’ll find a lovely place to call home for a while. Unfortunately, we do not have time to be picky & this is something I’m trying to rebel against, because I abhor settling for the sake of time. But it’s a little inevitable, & I’m having to force myself to become comfortable out of my comfort zone. It’s all very maddening.
What’s even more maddening is this whole foreclosure process. I, personally, know nothing about how the laws work or what we’re entitled to, so I don’t really understand everything. I feel like we are stuck in limbo, waiting for an answer about the status of our living situation. Our utilities are still on & we’re not having to pay rent, which is quite the plus. What’s troubling me, though, is that’s it’s awfully quiet around here; like the calm before the storm. So while trying to remain calm & positive, I can’t help but be a little on edge, waiting for the next eruption of bullshit. I am almost anticipating it at this point. Anything else added onto this already out of control mess would really be the icing on the cake. I am certainly not trying to jinx myself, but I am preparing for the worse.
One thing that is for certain is that Lover & I have each other & that wherever we go, I’m sure we’ll find a way to make it home. Now, this is something I already know because Lover has said it to me time & time again throughout this whole chaotic adventure. But I have yet to believe it with all of my heart.
Off the record: a great big thank you! is in order to Always In Style for the lovely award that was handed down to little, old me. I truly appreciate the love. Thank you. :]
on Tuesday, August 12th, 2008 at 11:24 am:
Aw, I really hope things start going better for you! I’m keeping you in mind
on Tuesday, August 12th, 2008 at 11:34 am:
I love that you call him Lover.
So cute.
And I can’t wait to see what you pick out for an apartment. That bungalow sounds delightful!
(I don’t deny that decisions are hard and I haven’t EVER had to apartment hunt, so I’m quite lucky.)
on Tuesday, August 12th, 2008 at 5:23 pm:
Oooh, don’t we look ready for apartment hunting. This is anything but mediocre, I love it. Especially the necklace, it has great colors.
I am so happy hear the apartment hunting is going good. See, you’ll be settle in a new place in no time.
P.S. Congrats on the award, your blog is definitely amazing because you’re amazing!! YEAH!!
on Tuesday, August 12th, 2008 at 7:55 pm:
I’m sure it’ll all work out. I felt the same way a month ago, but I only had two weeks and therefore had to stay with friends for a while until I found my now amazing apartment. Good luck!
on Wednesday, August 13th, 2008 at 11:53 am:
Apartment hunting can be fun and nerve wrecking at the same time. Just remember to be practical (ex. location, closet space) but also, listen to your heart, when there is something really special about a place that is not so practical (ex. an amazing view or a sun porch). Good luck:)
on Wednesday, August 13th, 2008 at 3:45 pm:
Aw, I know it’s hard… but try to enjoy it… just a little bit. I always think Michael and I will look back on all our struggles and trials and smile… I have a feeling we will miss it when it’s all gone. *shrugs* Or maybe that’s just me. That said, it took us a few trips to find our new place but I am glad we waited, I love it here. And I couldn’t deal with outdated appliances either :P Glad your emotions are back up. :D
on Wednesday, August 13th, 2008 at 4:55 pm:
I’m sure you’ll find a place you can call home. I’ve been there before and know how stressful it is, but it always works out in the end.
on Wednesday, August 13th, 2008 at 5:20 pm:
Thanks for stopping by my blog earlier! Your blog is so cute…looking forward to coming back! :)
on Wednesday, August 13th, 2008 at 6:12 pm:
Oh my goodness, I’m so glad you found my blog because I’ve found yours and I’m head over heels!
I’m sorry about all you’re going through right now - I know what you mean about the timing issue, though it wasn’t so pressing when we were looking for our house I found it horrible.
We looked for 5 weeks and bid on 3 houses, I think my fiance caved on the house we bought because he knew how stressed I was…it’s 100 years old but we’re making it all shabby chic and modern in its way, and it’s become the perfect place for us.
Housing security = a good thing. At the end of the day if you guys need to just rent a place and then keep looking for your perfect space you can always sublet. It’s a hassle but whatever it takes to take care of each other = )
on Wednesday, August 13th, 2008 at 7:15 pm:
Your boots are sooo cute! I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with such stress, but I’m glad you’re finding great options. :)
on Thursday, August 14th, 2008 at 8:32 am:
Good luck on finding an apartment. I really hope the perfect one comes into your life and there are no more ratty landlords to contend with.
I’m rather ambivalent to my pale skin…I don’t particularily like it, but at the same time I don’t make any effort to change it! It is nice when one wants to imitate a ballerina, but I tend to look very “done up” with the tiniest amount of make up and honestly pale skin really makes one stand out these days (in a bad way)…
on Thursday, August 14th, 2008 at 12:18 pm:
@ sandy: thanks, love. :] Lets all pray that I don’t go postal & injure someone because of all this bloody stress.
@ ashley.marie: Unfortunately, the bungalow was taken before we even got a chance to apply. ;/ I am so disappointed, too. I could cry. I have also never had to do apartment hunting until this moment. So I am overwhelmed with the little I know about this process…
@ Kelly: I certainly hope so, if not… I’ll be a homeless fashionista. HA! Imagining that just makes me giggle. :]
@ Schokolade Mädchen: thank you. :] I sure hope we can find something soon.
@ abby: thanks for the encouraging words. I don’t even know what to say at this point, other than that I am so over it. ;/
@ Meg: Yes, people keep telling me this. It’s just so hard to believe when you’re not having any luck at all. Sigh.
@ Anna: your welcome! & thank YOU. :]
@ Kyle Bea: thank you so much. :] I’m so glad you like my little diary. I am very fond of your as well. & thank you, too, for the encouraging words. I’ll hold onto them when I need a good pick me up. ;]
@ Cammila: Thank you! I adore these boots. They are my most favorite. :]
@ The Clothes Horse: That’s true; I suppose the grass is always greener on the other side … =]
on Thursday, August 14th, 2008 at 2:06 pm:
You’re gorgeous! I hope the apartment hunt goes well!
on Friday, August 15th, 2008 at 6:40 am:
Good luck with the apartment search. And my goodness. You always look so darn cute.
on Friday, August 15th, 2008 at 3:57 pm:
ok i said this on chictopia, but you are too too hot and you totally remind me of rihanna!
on Friday, August 15th, 2008 at 3:57 pm:
ps. i linked you! i can’t believe you weren’t already on my list!
on Friday, August 15th, 2008 at 4:22 pm:
@ richel: thank you, love! thank you very much. :]
@ ashley: Oh girl, if you only knew. I was feeling fatigued & bloated in this outfit… so thank you. =]
@ joyce: thank you so much, love! That is so kind of you. ;]