Monday, May 12th, 2008
my lover’s gone.
Lover has left for a business-like trip a few towns away from here. He’ll just be gone over night & will return Tuesday evening, but I am already dreading staying here alone, sleeping in that big bed all by myself. I am already missing him. We have never spent a night alone since we’ve lived here, which is days away from being a year, matter of fact. I can tell that these next 2 days will be spent with the television on for comfort & I’ll be texting Lover profusely, bothering him & telling him how much I miss & love him.
As pathetic as this time will be for me, I am going to make it a point to spend some much needed “me” time, thinking about how my life is going, (fear is still popping up now & again, keeping me from doing the things I want) pleasuring myself at the thought of my husband, & maybe… do a little browsing around the city. Unfortunately, there are no good movies playing now — in my opinion — or else I would indulge in a few matinées.
More than likely, a lot of writing will be done here; if only to kill time & abandon my lonely thoughts somewhere.
on Monday, May 12th, 2008 at 11:43 am:
Relish your alone time :) He’ll be back soon! And it’s not pathetic at all. K and I were separated for nine days over Christmas - keep in mind that we hadn’t been apart for more than two days since we moved in together 1.5 years ago (before that, we were long-distance for a year!). It’s completely understandable :)
on Monday, May 12th, 2008 at 1:52 pm:
I saw him on the metro this morning. I directed him how to get to the Blue line which goes to Long Beach.
on Monday, May 12th, 2008 at 2:09 pm:
That sounds like a pretty amazing time, if I do say so myself. I’m the same with R. He lived in Connecticut for a year (I’m in Chicago) while we dated, which was absolutely terrible. Now, I pretty much never go a day without seeing him.
on Monday, May 12th, 2008 at 2:57 pm:
i am not always a fan of having a house to myself either. but in the end i always enjoy dancing around my house and watching bad television :)
on Monday, May 12th, 2008 at 4:33 pm:
I’m the same way when I’m apart from my boy. But at the same time I enjoy all the free time to read and get boring errands done.
on Monday, May 12th, 2008 at 4:46 pm:
Oh and on the elevator just now at work I saw that Death Cab for Cutie has a new CD out and I thought of you. That would help your lonely time.
on Monday, May 12th, 2008 at 5:00 pm:
@ Sharon: Aw. :] I’m sure he was happy to see you. I want to take the metro sometime; I’m just heavily involved with my car.
@ sandy: I agree that it’ll be partially nice, but then again, I spend enough time alone stuck at home while he’s working, so it’s not that alone time is much needed or anything. I’m going to try to make the most of it.
@ katelin: I am currently doing that right now. =]
@ Meg: I hope to catch up on my reading, too. I used to read 3 books a month, now it’s like 2 books a year. Terrible.
@ Sharon: I know! I am partial to their new album, though, only because I heard their new single &… (forgive me, Ben, for saying this) I don’t like it. Not at all, actually. Jonathan dislikes it as well. I am praying that its just the single & not the whole album. If so, I’ll be in mourning.
on Thursday, May 15th, 2008 at 10:05 am:
I’m the same way when my hubby is gone. I realize that I could never have lived on my own, in my own place. I don’t know how some people do it. I get too lonely or too scared. At night, mostly.
Ah, well. I’m glad you made it through and had some “you” time!