Thursday, May 1st, 2008
fixed, indefinitely.
After much heartache (not to mention heartburn) over all of this drama involving my server, it finally looks as though it’s been solved. Although, there is still much to do. For example, my photographs in previous entries aren’t working for some weird, longshot reason; the last 2 posts I made aren’t showing up, mysteriously, etc. We switched hosts, which was the main cause of all of the agony we were put through. I am so relieved to finally see some light at the end of this long, draining & irritating tunnel. Even now, I am pushing myself to write; because of all the trouble that has been caused with my diary, I’d really rather not touch it with a 90 foot pole. But like getting a tetanus shot (or, even better, going through a female exam that involves a dreaded pap smear) it needs to be done, even if it doesn’t feel good, because it will be good for me. (That analogy was horrible, but I tried.) I think the most frustrating thing of all was feeling like my “reputation,” my personal statement in this endeavor — so to speak — would be tarnished. I mean, it’s obvious that I have people following & lurking my writings daily. & certainly, if it were the other way around, & I came across a blog with all of these mistakes & warning signs, I would never come back. I don’t blame you, nor anyone else, who has felt the frustration or the “what the fuck is going on?” like I did. Or maybe… I am thinking to highly of myself. Nevertheless, as much as I try to convince myself that I am doing this for myself & no one else, I can’t deny that I enjoy knowing that I do have a reader base; even if it’s just several people.
& truthfully, I am so weary of talking about this seemingly endless issue that I’d rather ban it from my memory. It’s caused so much frustration for both me & Lover; we’re both just ready to move on. & to think… some measly little hosting trouble involving your database server can actually cause all of this remorse & upset. Who would have thought.
Once I can collect my bearings — as well as fix the mistakes still left on this diary — I’ll resume my usual posting, with photographs & secrets. But for right now, I’m going to let the dust settle & try not to resent this place more than I already have.
on Thursday, May 1st, 2008 at 10:42 pm:
Hey, I’ll be reading! I’ll be looking forward to checking out the married life!
Oh and Ps- uh, you are gorgeous.
on Friday, May 2nd, 2008 at 8:46 am:
I think this is the end of our woes darling. I’m going to work diligently to get your photos and posts back, if I can ever get a response from Greenest Bullshit.
Only time will tell. Sigh.
on Friday, May 2nd, 2008 at 3:03 pm:
Pap smear analogy. Yesssssssss.
on Saturday, May 3rd, 2008 at 9:50 am:
@ MJ: thank you so much. :] & I’m glad that you enjoy my ramblings.
@ Jonathan: Stupid Greenest Bullshit. If it’s not fixed soon I may go postal. Just warning you, honey.
@ Natalie: ;D you know, I only said that because I have my annual female check up on Monday. ;[