September.

{photo courtesy of db photographs}

It’s no stretch to say that August wasn’t kind to me this year. Between sickness, fainting, astronomical medical bills, grueling dental work, & marital problems, I am utterly exhausted. So naturally, I’m greeting the month of September with open arms &  juicy kisses.

I adore September. It’s the month of birthdays (mine, Jonathan’s, mother-in-law’s, & sister-in-law’s), it’s the month of autumn (chilly evenings, chunky sweaters, & pumpkin spice lattes at Starbucks), it’s the month of new beginnings (the start of my 23rd year).

August stole my mojo. August gave me a busted chin & broken heart. August kept me stagnant, uninspired, & timid.

But September… September will be glorious.

I am in love.

Jonathan & I have been going through a bit of a rough patch for the last 7 days. It’s put an ridiculous amount of strain on our marriage, causing us both a lot of heartache & pain. Thankfully, we weathered the storm, but we desperately needed to reconnect & remind ourselves why we’re committed to each other in the first place. Aside from enjoying long, revealing chats, going out for lunches, taking hot baths, & lazying around in bed together, we figured this would be the perfect opportunity to finally reset his grandmother’s wedding ring for me.

The original ring is at least 40 years, made of 14k gold, the engagement ring & wedding band fused together. When I went to the jeweler, I told her that I didn’t quite know what I had in mind to reset it, but I wanted it made into one ring somehow & changed into white gold to match my own wedding band. Otherwise, I didn’t want to change a thing. I wanted to keep the antiquity & preciousness of it. They don’t make them like this anymore so this is truly one of a kind.

We dropped off the ring on Monday & picked it up with excitement this afternoon. The moment I saw it my eyes lit up.

(The hand in the ‘before’ picture belongs to my sister-in-law, Emily.)

I adore it. Simply & utterly adore it. I can’t stop staring at it. It’s breathtaking, both in sight & in sentiment. Not to mention, the jeweler did an impeccable job.

They took out the diamonds & settings from original wedding band & placed them on either side of the engagement ring. He also transformed the engagement ring into a beautiful white gold, so it matches my wedding band perfectly.

The ring on the bottom in the after picture is the wedding band Jonathan proposed to me with. I know that pairing the two rings together looks a bit unconventional, but I don’t wish it to be any other way. I cherish both rings equally, & I simply couldn’t wear one without the other. In time, I may melt down my wedding band & make it into something a bit thinner, so that it goes better with his grandmother’s ring. For now, though, I am in love with the arrangement as it is.

I know how silly this is going to sound, being that I’ve been married for almost three years now, but having Jonathan’s grandmother’s ring on my finger has made everything a little more real. Last week was such a nightmare, & every time I look at this ring I am reminded of everything we’ve been through & how we’ve managed to keep our love strong & enduring. What we have is truly one in a million & I am so blessed to have such a fantastic husband. He is my best friend & my entire world.

I’d also like to add how incredibly honored I am to be wearing his grandmother’s ring; even more so that his mom finds me worthy enough to wear it. At the moment, I am battling feelings of unworthiness, as though this is too precious of a gift for me to have. I know it’s going to take some time (& a lot less modesty) for me to feel truly comfortable wearing something so special. Not to mention, the idea that I’m wearing actual diamonds on my finger, which is a first for me. I’ve never had something so sentimental in my life, & I am floored to have been chosen as the woman to wear it.

I feel like this is such a perfect, beautiful way to continue my life with him. Not to mention, a great way to start my weekend.

I hope you all have a great weekend, too.

Link Love Fridays: #8

{photo courtesy of atomicShed}

Yes, I am aware that this was accidentally published on Tuesday. That was a mistake, & while I could easily take it back within WordPress, I couldn’t take it back from your personal feeds. Sorry for the repeat, but I think these batch of links are too good not to share a second time.

& if you’re paying close attention, you’ll notice that I added another link to the mix, even though it’s slightly terrifying.

You’re welcome.

“Awww, whatever it is, it’s so ugly that it’s almost cute! I wanna hug it!”
“But no, seriously… what IS that?”
“Oh, wait. I think I know. Is it a deranged stuffed-animal, maybe? No?”
“OHHH, I see it now. It’s a visciously deformed, albino walrus! … No?!?!”
“WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT???”

Click to find out what was causing me such confusion & prepare to be astonished. (Yes, this is safe for work, but not so much for your appetite.)

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Q: did you see anything on the internet this week that tickled your fancy? Share it with me.

products I use: hair.

I get a lot of emails asking about what products I use & recommend for hair, face, body, etc. As of lately, a lot of you have been wanting to know my current haircare regimen now that I am natural. I’d like to share that with you today.

Keep in mind, this is still very, very new to me & I’m still learning what my natural hair likes & doesn’t. My regimen is bound to change, but these are the products that are working beautifully for my hair currently.

(All images courtesy of google.com)

1.) Carol’s Daughter Tui Hair Smoothie.

I found out the hard way that shampoo does not mesh well with my natural hair. Most of them are far too harsh on my curls & leave my hair feeling dry & lacking nutrients. Instead I co-wash, which means that I wash my hair with conditioner only. I haven’t used actual shampoo in about a month, & I think that is the best decision I’ve made for my hair so far. My hair isn’t dirty or especially weighed down by using only conditioner. Every time I shower, I wet my hair which keeps it clean & rinses any residual conditioner without stripping it with shampoo.

I love the way this conditioner makes my hair feel & it smells divine.

How I use it: I co-wash twice daily (usually every other day); meaning, I condition, rinse, & repeat. The first time is for cleansing. I lightly scrub my scalp & rinse immediately after. The second time is to nourish my hair. I let it sit for 5 minutes, massaging the conditioner into my hair deeply. Afterward, I rinse it completely, towel dry, & begin the styling process.

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quickie.

Using random.org, I picked 3 winners of my most recent giveaway, & they are:

#33 – Grace Boyle
#16 –
Erica
#11 –
Sarah

Congratulations to you three! You’ll be getting an email from me shortly asking for your mailing address so that I can ship out your Wii/DSi cards as soon as possible. I hope you enjoy them.

& many thanks to everyone who entered. All of your answers were so positive & I really enjoyed reading them. If nothing else, I hope you were able to float a bit in the love you have for yourself. We should all be more aware of the appreciation & respect we have for ourselves.

Also, thank you for all the get well wishes in my last post! I’m feeling much, much better. :]

a bit of an update & a postponement.

If you follow me on Twitter, you know that I had a bit of an accident yesterday.

While taking Sofie for a short walk yesterday morning, I passed out a few times, hitting my chin on the sidewalk & busting it open. I was alone at the time; Jonathan was out hiking & wouldn’t be back until the afternoon. But thankfully, someone saw that I had collapsed & called the paramedics. Within minutes, I was whisked away to the emergency room.

They ran lots of tests — which included a CT scan, blood work, a pregnancy test (wouldn’t that have been interesting?), a chest x-ray, etc. — & hooked me up to an IV. I received 3 stitches to my chin & a tetanus shot. All the tests came back fine & I was diagnosed as being dehydrated from having had a flu & fever the night before.

Today, I’m feeling better, just weak & sore from the major ordeal from yesterday. My jaw locked up when I fell, so I have little mobility in my mouth, which makes talking & chewing an adventure (nothing but soups, smoothies, & soft foods for me!). My hands & feet are scraped up & I have bruises on my arms. I also chipped a few teeth from the fall, but thankfully they’re my molars. Really, I’m quite lucky that nothing more serious happened, like broken bones or head trauma.

As you can imagine, I’m pooped, so I’m sure you’ll understand that I’ll be postponing the giveaway results until sometime next week.

Unfortunately, I’ll have to put the vegan diet challenge on hold (now is not the time for me to be switching diets when I’m weak & slightly malnourished) as well as cancel my photography class on Sunday. I am so bummed about this, not to mention terribly frustrated. Lying around all day, eating soft foods, & being banged up is quite depressing. But I’m thankful that Jonathan has been here for me. Even Sofie seems to know that her mommy isn’t feeling well, & she stays close by to me at all times.

Now all there’s left to do is heal & wait for the medical bill to come. Because, as I’ve mentioned before, I have no health insurance & I just know that yesterday’s fiasco will cost a fortune. But I’m trying to count my blessings. It definitely could have been a lot worse.

Thank you for understanding & for all the well wishes you’ve given me on Twitter. If all goes well, I should be back on Monday.

& if you have any tips on feeling better (or perhaps some funny stories, links, videos, or jokes to make me laugh) do share! I’m in need of some lightheartedness.

:]

13 things + a little giveaway.

13 things I love about having short, natural hair:

  1. Bed head does not exist. Everyday is a good hair day.
  2. Jonathan can play, fondle, & rub my hair without me swatting him away. (I’ve let him play with my hair more in the last month than he ever has in the nearly four years we’ve been together.)
  3. Rolling down all the windows in my car & not worrying about the wind.
  4. It takes 30 seconds to “do” my hair.
  5. Feeling more whole, more honest, more free.
  6. Experiencing the humility of having a shaved head has left me feeling much more humble & with a new understanding of beauty.
  7. No more shower caps, flat irons, curling irons, blow dryers, or incessant primping in front of the mirror.
  8. People can finally see my eyes.
  9. I’ve been inspired to play around with makeup & peruse through my book of beauty; something I haven’t done in ages.
  10. Experimentation! With my many curl patterns, with new products, & with new hair care routines.
  11. Swimming. In oceans, in rivers, in pools, in bathtubs.
  12. Being the first woman in my [immediate] family to have their hair worn naturally.
  13. Falling a little more in love with my curly-headed self every time I look in the mirror.

the giveaway:

Leave a comment telling me 5 things you’re loving about yourself at the moment for the chance to win 1 of 3 Nintendo Wii/DSi point cards, worth $20 or 2000 points.* When redeemed, these points go towards super fun games for the Wii & DSi. (It’s preferred that you have either a Wii or a DSi, but it’s not necessary.)

I’ll pick three winners at random & announce on Friday, August 13th who won.

This contest is open to everyone (US & International).

Just be sure to enter by 7/12/11:59pm PST. All entries after that will not be counted.

*I’m a Brand Enthusiast in partnership with Nintendo & Brand About Town. They were kind enough to provide me with extra Wii/DSi point cards from a party I gave a month ago. I’m giving them away to you because you’re special. :]

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Q: what 5 things are you loving about yourself at the moment?